I have the power, do i?

I wrote this post and this one a while ago. Today i write in continuation.

This was a result of me seeking therapy from chatgpt. In continuation of that chat, with weeks and weeks of chat baji being my sound board, i now have a set of messages i can send to him if i want to  I won’t. However, having  them with me is empowering.

Big fat disclaimer: it’s just me seeking closure from a one sided crush.  He has nothing to do with it. He has no idea about it. He has always been kind and respectful towards me.

Here it is:

Hey, I hope you’re doing well.
I’ve been sitting with some things for a while, and I wanted to be honest. Over time, I’ve realized I’ve developed feelings that make it hard for me to stay emotionally neutral in our conversations.

This isn’t about wanting anything from you—it’s just that staying in touch tends to leave me feeling unsettled, and that’s something I need to take care of on my end.

You matter to me, and I genuinely wish you the best with everything you’re creating and sharing. But for now, I think some distance would be the kindest thing I can do—for myself.

Take care, truly.

Or another way

Hey, just wanted to say something that’s been on my mind for a long time .
I’ve realized that somewhere along the way, I started caring a bit more than I expected to, and that’s been messing with my head on a massive level.  Just feelings doing what they do.

I think I need to take a bit of space to quiet things down for myself. It’s nothing you did wrong at all. You’ve been kind and respectful and a true feminist ( trust me, it makes a world of difference)and I really do admire your work and how still love interacting with you.

However, for the sake of my mental peace, I need to recenter, you know? If I’m a bit quiet, and not reaching out or responding to texts ,that’s all it is. No hard feelings at all—wishing you only good things.

Or yet another one

Hey, I hope you’re doing okay.
I’ve been meaning to share something honestly. Over time, I’ve developed feelings that have made it harder for me to stay emotionally grounded in our conversations.

It’s not your fault—and I’m not expecting anything. I just need to take a little space for myself right now, so I don’t keep getting caught in this loop of overthinking and emotional noise.

You’ve always inspired me creatively, and I really do wish you well with everything you’re doing. I just need to find my center again, and that might mean stepping back a bit.

Maybe down the line, when things feel more neutral, we can reconnect with more clarity. Until then—take care, truly.

And a last one

Hey, I wanted to share something important.
Over time, I’ve realized that I’ve developed feelings that go beyond casual friendship. And while I’m not expecting anything from you, I’ve noticed that staying in touch tends to stir up a lot for me emotionally.

So for my own clarity and peace, I’m going to take a step back and create some distance. This isn’t about blame or expectations—it’s just something I need to do to take care of myself.

Wishing you the best with everything you’re working on.