Me and my thoughts

I can’t be just friends with you. Not because I don’t respect boundaries, but because for me, closeness never stays contained. If I talk to you today, I will want to talk to you tomorrow. And the day after that. What begins as a conversation quietly turns into attachment.
I imagine being in a long-term relationship with you.

I imagine moving to your city. I even imagine all the far-fetched scenarios in which my services could somehow be transferred there. And once these thoughts take root, “just friends” stops being something I can hold without wanting more.

That is why I think it is better if we don’t talk.
But I can’t stop myself from texting you.

Kya karun main khud ka.